<3

cuddle monster ;]

the experience that changed my life.

I DIDNT EXPECT TO FALL IN LOVE....
your purpose in life is to be loved by God. He created you so He can love you. You are a child of God and He saw you as perfect even before you were born. Before you were born, He knew everything you were going to think, all the actions you were to do, all the decisions you were going to make. God loves you so much that He sacrificed His only son for you. No matter where your heart is whether it be seeking God or distancing yourself from Him, He will always be coming after you. There is nothing you can do to make God not love you. You are His son and He is proud of you. and He loves you sooooo much... more than anyone can ever love you. With this understanding in mind, ive met a bunch of new people. people who are loving, caring, and they dont judge. the best people ive ever met in my life<3


IDENTITY- you are a child of God. son/daughter of the king so walk with swagger ;]

CHARACTER- what you do with that knowledge and the kind of person you choose to be

DESTINY- the great things you will do in life



last weekend was the best experience of my life. it answered so many questions and prayers. and i will forever be thankful for the lessons i learned and the people ive been blessed with<3

<3

after a vigorous game of bowling, we went to jack in the box and ordered the same food lol. you were only supposed to stay just to eat, but somehow you ended up staying over. you being in my room in person was a lot better than talking to you on skype. we were just hanging out on my floor just like we used to. laughing and goofing around. you were trying to leave but for some reason you were lying on the floor and i laid across your chest and you had your arm around me. then you couldnt leave so you decided to stay. and that made me that much more happier cuz you knew i didnt want you to go. so we both just lied there and somehow it seemed like you moved in closer and your arm was around me. i tried to fall asleep but i couldnt and when i looked up i saw you staring at me.... smiling. now that i think about it... i caught you doing that a lot.


i honestly dont know what to think of last night.
i dont know what this means for us.
i dont want to be just another are they/arent they with you.
but what i do know is...
i wish i could relive last night.
<3

more things to look forward to!

[dec25] christmas!! (check)
[dec27] christmas sunday (check)
[jan1] the new year (check)
[jan5] danny's birthday [: (check)
[jan8-10] winter retreat [check]
[jan18] getting the braces off!


so much more to come!

things are looking up.

i know its been a roller coaster
-___________-


later today:
work.work.work
yogurtland with danny
setting up the church for tonight

tonight:
service
dinner
presentation
clean up
hang out [:

saturday:
cousins all day! :D

sunday:
church!


im so excited!!!
XD

fuck.

still hurts.

iloveyou.

i want to be with you more than anything.
but youre too busy having fun with your new life without me.
you kept feeding me bullshit about how you still love me
and one day we'll be together.
lies.