yes i'm currently obsessed with michael buckley. you kinda have to admire someone who can talk really really fast and not stutter. he just puts a smile on my face and he's hecka funny. what i like most is that he's very honest and he's blunt about it. we need more people like him in the world. i'm thinkin.... michael buckley for president?! haha! oh what a world that would be. so i've been having a good week. monday went swell. tuesday was great. and today was fantastic! this week has taught me;; there are other things to do other than confine myself in woodshop! a lesson i'm happy to have learned.
today was really awesome because this was the first day i stuck to my diet! just two more days and i'm set! oh yea! why is dieting the HARDEST thing in the world?! i swear i'm like going mad crazy out of my mind. i havent really eaten since i got home from school. but that was because i slept the day away. i'm not anorexic. i eat a lot thanks. in fact i eat too much.
so what else i there to talk about? i guess my life really isnt that interesting. ooh ooh! term c is almost starting and i must say i like my new schedule. no more cranky pants old man!! yay! i'm really starting to hate the smeel of cigarettes and coffee.
okay. so i broke my diet just a little. i'm not eating junk food. but i am eating and its past 8 so... well they say your not supposed to eat three hours before you go to bed and i'll be sleeping late so i would be starving myself if i didnt. and lisa said not to eliminate. just cut down. so i'm only eating a little bit of rice and i'm drinking lots of water. i really dont know how diets work. so this to me is a great accomplishment. and besides. its mussels. and anyone who knows me quite well knows i have a weakness for shell foods. haha no not really. but what i do crave right now is korean sushi and dumplings. now those are some good yummies! actually i lied again. what i crave is my bed. but its being occupied right now so i cant go lie in it. oh the torture.
so what to do. what to do. so lately ive been observing people. i dont know why. i dont plan on trying to get something out of it or analyze them. but there were just things that i've noticed.
lets start with sickler. he breaks up with gloria. he hits on me. sends me another one of "those texts". i reject him. then the next day he gets back together with her. now we move on to gloria. sickler breaks up with her. she cries. he calls her up late at night and gets back togehter with him.
i have come to the conculsion;; sickler is a dog. and gloria is slightly retarded. she can do better. i know she can.
as we keep it in the leadership family, i'm going to jump over to lucina. she must have some loose bolt jumbling up inside her head. here's my reason;; i hang out with sickler. she tags along. then she takes sickler away from me and leaves with him without me. okay. so i hang out with erick. she loses interest in sickler. she tags along with me and erick. then she tried to ditch me again. atempt failed but nice try though! then i hang out with tommy. again, she tags along. but this time. i i choose to not hang out with tommy anymore. so now she just follows him and goes where ever he does. but little did she know, tommy ditched her to hang out with me.
conclusion;; she too is slightly retarded, and slightly pathetic. these were the freshmen momma warned you about! hahah!
lets leave 3rd period and move on to matt. he leaves me for another girl. he has the girl. and yet he is so concerned with the i <3 cameron written on my hand. suddenly i see him looking everytime a guy comes to hug me. he makes a face everytime he sees me with anthony or barco, or anyone other guy he doesnt know. oh apparently i'm dating barco. and his name is cameron. stupid little boy. there are only two good things that came out of my situation with matt;; i have found a love for taylor swift and it scares me how much i relate to all of her songs. and i discovered how strong i am as a person and i have found confidence in myself and my self esteem is actually above ground now.
conculsion;; matt is an idtiot and he is not gonna play me anymore.
this is kinda a chain reaction cuz right now we're heading onto anthony who is one of matts good friends. anthony is a cutie! he has woodshop with matt and i have developed a little crush on him. but i know i could never date him nor do i want to. he is so not my type and he is totally wrong for me but he's very fun to look at. lately anthony has been trying to get my attention. he hugs me comes over to me and hugs me whenever he sees me and he wonders where i'm at now that i dont go to woodshop anymore. and i loved the fact that he smiled when i told him me and matt were dunzo.
conclusion;; lydia is right. he is definitely attracted to me. but nothing is gonna happen.
i do believ this blog has gone on for way too long but i'm really bored and i need something to pass the time. wow. life is pretty boring at this moment. but this is the time where its okay to be boring. i really want to just lie in my bed and sleep. but i cant. =/ right now i'm listening to taylor swift. i really love how i can discover a song of hers and it will describe exactly where i'm at with matt;;
forever && always
should've said no
picture to burn
i <3 ??
white horse
i'm seriously obsessed. i'm listening to her songs constatnly. not only to i relate to her, but her songs are hella catchy. you cant really help but sing along. aha!
you know what i really love? when the person you like but hurt you comes back and tries to get you back. this ALWAYS happens to me. i know that sounds conceieted but it does. everytime i get rejected by someone they ALWAYS come back and tell me they want to be with me and they had it all wrong. so matt will be no different. why?! because i'm unforgettable. everytime an ex boyfriend fails yet another relationship, i know they think of me and they think of how good they had it. cuz i'm one hell of a girlfriend. and when matt gets annoyed of megan, he's gonna think of me and kick himself in the ass for leaving me. but its okay! cuz where will i be?!
i will be too busy being on tv, filming movies, and recording my taylor swift songs but with a demi sound. poor ex boyfriends, they will be seeing me everywhere. they'll be at home and my show comes on. and knowing them, theyre gonna watch it. when they take a girl out on a date, they'll be taking her to the movies. and what will she want to see? my summer box office hit of course! and though they will be watching the movie with someone else. they wont be paying much attention cuz all they'll be thinking about is how they had me. and they pray to God she wont find out. cuz they know she wont be too happy about that. honestly, how can any girl be okay with having to be compared to me? that sounds cocky but its true. but i wouldnt want to follow up after me either. haha! and when theyre in the car, they will turn on the radio and they will be hearing my voice telling a story. and they will listn carefully thinking it sounds very familar. thats when they realize, its about them. cuz i have written songs about all of them. haha! but i wrote the most about matt. so he will definitely be aware. cuz i play it like taylor swift. they include names. so when they are on their date,they will be turning the radio down.
so yea. i'm probably i jerk for thinking this way. but i'm happy when i hear how my ex boyfriends miss me and they regret losing me. honestly, that would make anyone feel good. and soon matt will be missing me and he will regret letting me go. i know he's thinking about me right now. he says he does. whats on my mind? haha! there's a lot. and yes i do stumble upon matt from time to time. but now its no longer angry thoughts. its just me knowing that i didnt do anything wrong. i was the best "girlfriend" he will ever have. megan cant compare to me. not even close. but really now its just the fond memories and the good times we shared. as it should be. =]
okay now this has REALLY gone on for way too long.
good night<3
