day 4

b a b y ! :D
day 4 is pretty much OVER!!!
which means....... YOUR COMING HOME TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!! ahhh im so excited!! although i most likely wont be able to see you ): but im going to see you this saturday!! i've missed you sooooooooooooooo much! i thought about you constantly. i had a dream to day that you came home and i was sooooo happy and i started crying cuz i was finally able to see you but then i woke up -______________- and i cried. cuz i was so happy but it was a dream so it kinda felt like you left me twice this week =/ anyway. i should probably try to go to bed early tonight since im going to have to wake up early for disneyland. it breaks my heart knowing that your not going to be with me tomorrow. hopefully you will join us tomorrow when you get back. although you will be really tired so i dont know =/ i still hope i have fun tomorrow. and i promise i will try to take you another day. i want to go with you!

ohmygosh. i woke up soooooo late today and the day still felt so long. i just wanna wake up. pass the time with disneyland and then wake up on saturday to be with you. it always gets so frustrating torwards the end. i dont know why. i've been looking at fail blog a lot. and ohmygosh its so funny. hahahaha! i miss you so much and i hope you wont be going away anymore. i really dont like you being even further away from me ): im hanging out with danny tomorrow so at least i wont be going crazy out of my mind waiting for you to come home. and i'll be near downey so hopefully you wont be too tired to meet me at disneyland.


not much to report about my day. i woke up at 6:30 pm -________- ate food. and spent the rest of my day with my computer. oh yea...... update on my mirror drawings..... apparently i used a permanent marker and........ -_______FAIL______- it wont come off! and um...... well, there's nothing much to say. thats all i did today. blah. i hate that i slept all day today. cuz i dont know if i'll be able to get some sleep tonight ): im going to try. so um....... im hungry again. so im going to go eat now. bye baby!


i miss you soooooo much!
and im so happy your coming home tomorrow!



i l o v e y o u !
forever&always
<33333333333

day 3

s i n w o o b i n o o !
here we are..... day three of your absence.... and let me tell you, this has been the looooooongest 3 days of my life. andy said i just have to wait 2 more days. but i dont want to ): hmmmmm how did i spend my day? ummmmm........ BEING A NERD!!!!
started off my day by being woken up by the daniel beast!! :O
i took apart stuff just to put it back together.
drew anime characters all over my mirrors with dry erase markers.
looked up how many licks it takes to get to the center of a tootsie pop [763]
helped my brother wash his car
looked up disney urban legends O.o
watch some of your narutiotjrgj;ralg stuff that you like so much haha
danced like a maniac [high five!]
gagged myself until i almost threw up -______-
watced how i met your mother
watch random videos about expresso latte art
watch different random videos of really cool techonology
"technology of the future....... today! *echo: ay ay ay ay ay*"
jumped on my bed til i hit my head on my ceiling fan T.T
got a tattoo :D


and now im sitting on my bed
im not tired at all ):
again.....
STOP LEAVING!!!!
im being deprived of sleep and ITS ALL YOUR FAULT!!!! hahaha


well..... i guess thats it sooooo.....
good night baby!
i hope your being safe
your in my prayers (:
and i miss you soooooooooooooooo much!!!!!!!



i l o v e y o u !
forever&&always
<333333333333

day 2

good morning baby!!!!
or at least it would be if it were actually morning and not 11 o clock at night haha. so i had a good day today [high five!] i thought it was going to be a boring day, but my brother took me to GCC to take my assessment. and it reminded me of how much i hate taking tests! ugh! and im not even done -______- i still have to take the math part and meet with the councelor. we were gonna do that today but the line was soooooooooooooo long!!!!! haha apparently i dont have much patience lol. and then my brother took us to mcdonalds which was actually really fun. im gonna like going to GCC. there's a mcdonalds, coffee bean, and pizza place (: all within walking distance. so if my brother ever lags it.... i'll have something to do [two thumbs up!] then i went home and sung my little heart out and danced like a crazy maniac hahaha. its been a fun day. i was out of bed, i got things accomplished, and i even worked out a little bit! :O whaaaaa?! jennie worked out?!?! yes!!!! haha i dont know why. i just felt like it. im sick of my love handles >.< then i watched stuff on youtube and i might be heading off to bed soon. well thats pretty much it for now....


before i forget. i finally get to enroll into my classes tomorrow! :D
and im going to be in the next musical hopefully and the winter and spring dance show!
im really excited!!!


what im most excited about.......
YOU COMING HOME!!!!! :D
i miss you sooooooooooooooooooo much!
and i cant wait to be back in your arms and smother you with kisses! haha
and please dont leave me again. i couldnt take it if you went away again.



i love you sooooooo much!
f o r e v e r && a l w a y s
<3333333333

another day 1 =/

hi baby!!!
your gone.....
again -____________-
i really really dont like you being gone all the time
but jaynie said i need to get used to it
cuz we're gonna be famous one day
and we're going to be going off to who knows where doing movies
and tv shows and whatever else we would be doing
as much as that scares me.... im really excited
she said we're GOING to be famous (:
not IF we are.... we just are.


but for now. your gone. and its sucks. im actually jealous of you. you get to go off on these adventures, learning new things and discovering yourself and strengthening your relationship with God. and im just at home.... doing nothing. i hate doing nothing. im so sick of just staying at home day dreaming of being rescued and wisked away and off to do something exciting and go places. i think thats where we differ. your always having adventures without me. i want to share experiences with you. i may be needy or clingy or whatever. and i hate that you always tell me we have to be apart. i want you to be the one to tell me that in the future, we're gonna go on all these exciting adventures together. i wish you would just focus on the being together part. and yet, your always reminding me that you want your seperate life. which makes me wonder if you really wanna be with me........... i really hate it when you go away. it always makes me think negatively and it depresses me.

now im actually begging you. please stop going away. and really think about what i just said.
cuz you know im never going to tell you this in person. this is the only way i can tell you how im really feeling
when im upset. generally, i just hate thinking this way. cuz your an amazing boyfriend and you do everything for me.
but i miss how we were in the beginning when it was exciting and you were so romantic and spontaneous and you surprised me with all those unforgettable dates. and you were always telling me about all the fun stuff we were gonna do together.


i know you dont like it when i go outside at night
but im going for a walk.


i love you calvin
and i hope your having an awesome time.
and i know i probably sound like a douche
but i hope this blog makes you feel bad.
cuz right now im miserable as hell and i feel like shit.



i m i s s y o u !
<333333333

sudden craving for chocolate and romance......

dream date (:


- early morning pick up
- AM dose of starbucks
- spend the day at the getty (:
full of conversations and topics that go on for days
- head down the 405 to santa monica
- picnic on the beach
- watch the sunset (:
- long walk along the shore
- bring an extra sweater just for me (:
- end it with a perfect good night kiss


the perfect way to spend the day
and i would let you take pictures (;
<3>

krutons and apple sauce......

so a couple nights ago when i couldnt sleep
i recovered one of my old blogs of mine
i wrote it when i was single and it describes my dream boyfriend......
and here we are a year later and i still want the same thing
i guess some things never change;;


- playful wrestles
- hand holding
- matching clothes [hahahaha :P]
- walking with his arm around her
- opening car doors and pulling out chairs (:
- carrying purses
- helping her out of the car or out of her seat
- kisses on the cheek or forehead
- kisses on the hand
- kisses on the forehead while walking (:
- piggy back rides (:
- random texts
- surprises
- love notes :P
- protective boyfriend (:



someone who will....
- bring you soup when your sick
- puts their arm around you when your cold
- show their affection for you in front of friends
- look at you with genuine loving eyes and think your the most amazing thing on earth
- break you out of your shell
- someone who you can be playful with
- be spontaneous and romantic
- make you feel special
- tell you about their day
- plan the perfect date with lots care and consideration
- will tell you whats on their mind
- someone who is not afraid to tell you how they feel about you
- say something other than 'i love you' and 'your amazing'
- say, "its cute how you....." i like the way you....." etc....
- treat you like a princess
- someone who wont make you feel bad about yourself



yea. i like those cheesy couple stuff. like the ones in those taylor swift videos.
i think its cute and i would love a boyfriend like this.
(:

day 3

hi baby! :D
i hope you've been having fun
cuz surprisingly i have been (:
i've been hanging out with my brother and sister
watching movies, eating my weight in junk food
the usual
today was kind of unproductive but its okay
i slept in for the first time in days (:
and i found out some exciting news....
- there's gonna be a meteor shower tonight!
- my tatay's coming home!!!!!! [grandpa]
dont be afraid, i promise he doesnt bite (:
actually, you'll be gone so it doesnt matter lol
there wont be a list of what i did today
cuz i kinda already told you
yea.... nothing really happened
but tomorrow will be productive (:
i really miss you and i cant wait til you come home
i dont even know when you get back -______-
because SOMEONE never tells me anything ):
my lip hurts and i have no idea why


but um..... im so excited to see my grandpa!!! :D
i love him so much! and he's gonna love you (:
so right now im watching tv..... there's nothing on really
im watching this show i've never heard of
and it makes me wanna learn how to play basketball haha
we should play one day..... or you should teach me how to play volleyball
for some reason, i just wanna go outside and do something
but no soccer, baseball, or golf :P haha
or you and i should go play tennis!!
but let me tell you now....... im REALLY bad at sports
like REEEEAAAALLLLLYYYYY bad
i want us to be one of those fun couples.....
but your gonna have to make me fun.... cuz we both know how boring i am =/
oh i made myself all low self esteem-ish again ):
i miss you!!!!<33333


well.... im gonna eat now cuz its like 10:30
and im hungry haha
good night baby! :D


i l o v e y o u !
<333333333
[forever&always]

day 2

happy monday!!!!! :D
yes, who knew monday would make me smile lol
it is DAY 2 of your trip and i must say
i wasnt at home miserable all day!!! YAY!!! :D
now its time for.....
MONDAY RE-CAP!

today i;;
- woke up and took a shower
- went to the dreaded D M V [dun dun duuuuuun!]
- took my test for the THIRD time -_____-
- got my period -___________________________________-
- P A S S E D !!!!! :D :D :D :D
[i kinda called you already haha]
- did a little victory dance aha!
- went home thinking i was gonna take a nap
- surprised by my brother's maturity
- my brother created my school schedule
[i'll be in school longer than i wanted, but its okay]
- finally went to GCC and am now officially enrolled (:
- got cramps so bad i passed out ):
- went home again to take a nap for real
- dentist time -_________-
- pain.pain.pain
- my rubberbands are blue now
[cuz its your favorite color<3]
- got home again and ate dumplings!
y u m m y ! :9
- now im resting in bed



sucks that i couldnt go to jrp today
but i dont mind
CUZ I HAD A GOOOOOOD DAY! ^_^
ryan didnt go either
but im gonna go finish himym so........
B Y E !
i hope your having a lot of fun
and your being careful
and i hope your missing me (:


i l o v e y o u d e a r !
<33333333
[forever&&always]

day 1

so calvin..... here we are
in blogger....... ummmmm
hi? hahaha awkward.................
*awkward silence*
hahaha just kidding
so im going to keep you updated here
cuz i know by the time you get back, im gonna forget
cuz thats what i do -_____________-
i just finished studying and i took every practice test i could find
i only missed 1 question per test [high five!]
i hope it pays off. i'll be really disappointed if i fail again.]

sooooooo lets talk about my day:::
- woke up and called you so you can pack
- took a shower and re punctured my scab until it bled. gross
- got ready and left for jrp
- watched how i met your mother for 2 HOURS!!!! O.o
- sang more songs but felt better about it
- dianna is a douche
- hung out with kevin
- OMG FACTOR!!!! kerry got fired D:
- did a scene with kevin and it turned out AWESOME!!
- i memorized my lines in 15 minutes! :D
[we went over it in the hallway a bunch of times before debra got into class]
- waited for my parents to pick me up
[they were late. no surprise]
- went to fry's and got hello kitty headphones and..... wait for it....
THE DEMI LOVATO CD!!!!!! ^_^
- went home and listened the the most awesomest songs ever!!!
- ate panda express
- cleaned for 32468726524 hours ):
- collapsed into bed
- watched movies on tv
- wrote you a very long comment
- late night snack
- this
and throughout all of this excitement
i've been studying every free minute i had

and now im about to go to bed
so this was a sum up of my day
you can ask for more details later
cuz right now im too tired to specify

I LOVE YOU BABY AND I MISS YOU SOOOOOOO MUCH!!!
i cant wait until you come back to me (:
which reminds me of something i have to tell you
which i think you will find funny
because i found it HILARIOUS! :D

in case i forget....
just remind me its about "wedding presents"
hahahaha ;]


oooooooh taaaaaay!
good night my dearest calvin
sweet dreams
your in my prayers (:


forever and always<3