hi baby!!!
your gone.....
again -____________-
i really really dont like you being gone all the time
but jaynie said i need to get used to it
cuz we're gonna be famous one day
and we're going to be going off to who knows where doing movies
and tv shows and whatever else we would be doing
as much as that scares me.... im really excited
she said we're GOING to be famous (:
not IF we are.... we just are.
but for now. your gone. and its sucks. im actually jealous of you. you get to go off on these adventures, learning new things and discovering yourself and strengthening your relationship with God. and im just at home.... doing nothing. i hate doing nothing. im so sick of just staying at home day dreaming of being rescued and wisked away and off to do something exciting and go places. i think thats where we differ. your always having adventures without me. i want to share experiences with you. i may be needy or clingy or whatever. and i hate that you always tell me we have to be apart. i want you to be the one to tell me that in the future, we're gonna go on all these exciting adventures together. i wish you would just focus on the being together part. and yet, your always reminding me that you want your seperate life. which makes me wonder if you really wanna be with me........... i really hate it when you go away. it always makes me think negatively and it depresses me.
now im actually begging you. please stop going away. and really think about what i just said.
cuz you know im never going to tell you this in person. this is the only way i can tell you how im really feeling
when im upset. generally, i just hate thinking this way. cuz your an amazing boyfriend and you do everything for me.
but i miss how we were in the beginning when it was exciting and you were so romantic and spontaneous and you surprised me with all those unforgettable dates. and you were always telling me about all the fun stuff we were gonna do together.
i know you dont like it when i go outside at night
but im going for a walk.
i love you calvin
and i hope your having an awesome time.
and i know i probably sound like a douche
but i hope this blog makes you feel bad.
cuz right now im miserable as hell and i feel like shit.
i m i s s y o u !
<333333333
your gone.....
again -____________-
i really really dont like you being gone all the time
but jaynie said i need to get used to it
cuz we're gonna be famous one day
and we're going to be going off to who knows where doing movies
and tv shows and whatever else we would be doing
as much as that scares me.... im really excited
she said we're GOING to be famous (:
not IF we are.... we just are.
but for now. your gone. and its sucks. im actually jealous of you. you get to go off on these adventures, learning new things and discovering yourself and strengthening your relationship with God. and im just at home.... doing nothing. i hate doing nothing. im so sick of just staying at home day dreaming of being rescued and wisked away and off to do something exciting and go places. i think thats where we differ. your always having adventures without me. i want to share experiences with you. i may be needy or clingy or whatever. and i hate that you always tell me we have to be apart. i want you to be the one to tell me that in the future, we're gonna go on all these exciting adventures together. i wish you would just focus on the being together part. and yet, your always reminding me that you want your seperate life. which makes me wonder if you really wanna be with me........... i really hate it when you go away. it always makes me think negatively and it depresses me.
now im actually begging you. please stop going away. and really think about what i just said.
cuz you know im never going to tell you this in person. this is the only way i can tell you how im really feeling
when im upset. generally, i just hate thinking this way. cuz your an amazing boyfriend and you do everything for me.
but i miss how we were in the beginning when it was exciting and you were so romantic and spontaneous and you surprised me with all those unforgettable dates. and you were always telling me about all the fun stuff we were gonna do together.
i know you dont like it when i go outside at night
but im going for a walk.
i love you calvin
and i hope your having an awesome time.
and i know i probably sound like a douche
but i hope this blog makes you feel bad.
cuz right now im miserable as hell and i feel like shit.
i m i s s y o u !
<333333333
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