Saturday, July 4, 2009

mixed emotions and a barrel or ice cream.

i just watched the new hannah montana episode thats supposed to premiere tomorrow. who knew a disney channel show would make me think so much. i watched disney channel to keep myself from thinking too much. but i guess all of that got thrown out the window the minute i pushed play. i already felt a little uneasy before hand. but now im barfing up emoticons prior to. but i think its safe to say my heart triumphs all. who knew i would find a deeper meaning in such a shallow tween television show.



pre hannah montana;;
you said we dont talk much anymore. you miss talking to me. God knows i miss it too. i wanna go back to the time when we always had something to talk about and we never ran out of anything to say. the "getting to know each other" part was fun, cute, and exciting. i wanna get back to that.


the meaning behind hannah montana;;
miley= girl who is in love (me)
jake= guy of her dreams (you)
duh!
it sounds so simple. like a fairy tale. but this is where the complication kicks in. jesse (bad boy guitar player) represents every guy she will never get to meet. every experience she will never get to have. every lesson she will never get to learn. she made that instant connection with jake since day one. there was that chemistry and mutual understanding between them. but jesse brings about this curiosity and broadens her mind with new ideas and point of views. she was torn.
which to choose?!
jake- the one with the big heart with good intentions?
-or-
jesse- the one with the wild side who is exciting and daring?


the after math;;
i cried.
i was over-whelmed with this feeling that suddenly came over me the minute the show ended. and it was telling me something. it was then that i realized something that i have never been so sure of in my life. i am in love with sin woo [calvin] park. you are the one i want. you are the one i need. i want to spend the rest of my life with you. people are always talking about finding "the one". and you my dear...... are it. you are "the one". i dont need to be faced with a "jesse" to realize that you are perfect for me. i will never have feelings for anyone else and i dont want anyone else. you are the only one i want and there is no one on this earth that can change that.
its set in stone.......


im in love....
with calvin park (:
<33333333

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